Out Here the Good Girls Die

last thing i want is to lose my independence, to forget what it’s like to be alone, to forget what it’s like to care for only myself.

the last thing I want is to trip because I became dependent on someone that’s not myself, to get all worked up due to someone else is a situation I can avoid. I can’t become clingy, becoming attached to someone is losing my sense of independence and self direction. 

this - this reason is one of the reasons why I was scared of really loving someone.

But I can’t help but somewhat enjoy the personal challenges I’m facing. 

I like giving myself a hard time - I swear. .- .